A Fistful of Sand

  On the morning, June 13, 2025, my wife and I were walking through downtown of our city. I spotted a small mouse on the sidewalk. It was shaking and seemed confused. We at once recognized the fragile beauty had fallen victim of the standard practice of poisoning rodents, a practice I vehemently oppose based on its inherent cruelty. A mouse wants happiness and tries to avoid pain and death every bit as much as you do or I do. Initially I thought having the mouse in peace would be a kind choice but seeing that there was a great deal of foot traffic, and it looked like rain. My wife and I decided to let put the mouse in the wooded area away from the sidewalk. I took her into my hands and lifted her up to the wooded green space away from the concrete. The wobbly little mouse wandered off into the leaves and disappeared to die in familiar surroundings and in peace, well, as peacefully as possible when one is dying of internal hemorrhage.   Once the experience of sadness dissi...

Art by Nembutsu Art Shinjin , often translated as "true entrusting" in the Pure Land tradition, is more than private faith; it is a radical inner liberation that resists external control. In a world governed by fear, manipulation, and power hierarchies, Shinjin affirms that salvation does not come from systems, authorities, or status—it arises from turning inward and entrusting fully in Amida Buddha’s boundless compassion. This simple, direct awakening undermines the authority of regimes that thrive on obedience, guilt, and conformity. Shinjin proclaims that liberation is freely given, not earned, and cannot be taken away. For the oppressed, this is an act of spiritual defiance: to entrust oneself to a Buddha beyond the reach of kings and tyrants. In Shinjin, one lives with dignity not granted by society but revealed through awakening. It says, “I am already saved,” and in doing so, breaks the illusion that worldly power holds the keys to worth or freedom. How does shinjin in...

Art by Lim Chung  Hee In the modern world, many identify as spiritual seekers. They read sacred texts, attend teachings, and speak of awakening, love, and truth. Yet the depth of spiritual transformation does not lie in seeking alone—it lies in consistent, courageous practice. It is possible to be a devoted seeker and still harbor deep fear, resentment, pride, and attachment. It is even possible to nurture disrespect for one’s own teachers—those who represent the very wisdom one claims to revere. When this happens, there is a fundamental misunderstanding at play. One has confused spirituality with religion, and practice with identity. The Danger of Identity-Based Religion When a person identifies with a religion rather than embodying its truth, they wear their spiritual path like a badge, not a mirror. They conflate knowing doctrines with knowing reality. This creates an ego that is harder to detect— the spiritual ego . Cloaked in conviction, this ego believes it already knows...

Artist — Lim Chung Hee When we sit in meditation, thoughts arise. That’s not a problem—it’s natural. Thoughts, feelings, and sensations are the raw material of our practice. They are not interruptions; they are the very field in which mindfulness and insight develop. Often, a practitioner has a session that feels clear, balanced, even luminous. There may be a sense of accomplishment, ease, or emotional release. Then, perhaps the very next day, the mind shifts. A wave of negative emotions appears—anger, jealousy, anxiety, irritation, or despair. The contrast can be jarring:  “Yesterday I was calm. Today I feel poisoned.” And then comes the fork in the path. The Habitual Move: Projection For many, the default response is projection. Instead of meeting these inner states directly, we unconsciously look outward for a cause. The discomfort is disowned and relocated onto someone or something else:  “It’s because of her.” “He made me feel this way.” “They are the problem.” This is no...

Courtesy of Nembutsu Art   Introduction: Trust Beyond Effort What if awakening wasn’t something to strive toward—but something already here, waiting to be realized? In the Pure Land tradition of Buddhism, this realization is known as  shinjin  ( 信心 )—a profound, transformative “true entrusting” that opens the heart to boundless compassion. More than belief, more than feeling,  shinjin  is the awakening of trust beyond self-effort. What Is Shinjin? At its core,  shinjin  is not about believing in a distant deity or reciting mantras for favor. It’s about  awakening to a truth that is already true : that Amida Buddha’s Primal Vow encompasses all beings, without exception. For Shinran Shōnin,  shinjin  was not a result of effort ( jiriki ), but a realization of  other-power  ( tariki ). It arises when we awaken to the truth that we are already grasped, never to be abandoned. “Shinjin is itself enlightenment.” —  Tannishō Moder...